This blog lists and explains the most heartbreaking depression monologues.
Depression monologues are literature that depicts extreme and uncontrollable sadness and symptoms of depression, like lack of sleep and food.
The depression monologues show deeper, romanticized, and tortured insights of depression as told by the troubled minds of literary geniuses.
The depression monologues can be an exemplary representation of depression in literature history.
The Bullied, Bungled and Botched by D.M. Larson
“Strong Enough For Both of Us” is a classic monologue about depression by D.M. Larson. It delves deeper into the skin of the person suffering from depression. It truly is the depiction of hopelessness and helplessness faced by depressed people.
“Yes, you’re right. I have to toughen up. There’s always someone who has it worse than me. Sorry, I am so depressed all the time. Sorry, I bring you down. I don’t mean to ruin your day. Or your life. I’d love to stop being depressed. I wish I could look on the bright side and turn that frown upside down. I wish it were that easy.
You think it’s my fault, don’t you? You think it’s all in my head. Yes, we all have this problem, don’t we? We all get a little blue sometimes. I get very blue all the time. I’m so blue I’m purple. Don’t tell me you understand… you don’t understand!
Do you really know how this feels? Do you really know how this grips me inside and threatens to rip me apart? Do you know the weight that holds me down, a weight so powerful I can hardly move?
Yes, I’m using this to punish you. I am angry at you so I’m acting this way to hurt you… I need to stop feeling sorry for myself… Me, me, me… yes, it’s all about me. I want you all to drop everything and focus on me! I’m sorry I even came out of my room.
Oh yeah… a nice cup of tea will instantly cure me – maybe if you put some strychnine in it. I wish I could just snap out of it… like it was some kind of spell a witch cast on me. I’m waiting for some prince to come along and kiss my tears away.
Don’t worry. I won’t say anything anymore. I didn’t want to bring it up. I didn’t want to talk about it anyway…
I bet you’re sorry you asked how I was doing. How am I doing anyway? I’m hurting so bad. I wish there was something that would take away the pain. I can’t handle this much longer.
All I want to know is that I’m not alone… that I’m important to someone. Maybe I want a hug sometimes. Maybe I want someone to tell me I’m not going crazy, that’s it’s not really my fault.
I need to know I didn’t do this to myself and that I’m not the cause of this horrible thing that’s happening to me. I want someone to be here for me and help me through this. I need someone stronger than me. I’m so weak. I need someone who is strong enough for both of us.
I need to know you’ll be there for me. I need to know you’ll never give up on me. That you’ll never leave me. That you’ll never go away. And I need someone to help me not give up on myself. I want to know that I’m important. That I matter. That I’m loved. Tell me that things will get better. It helps to have someone to talk to. It helps to say something Thank you for listening. Thank you for not leaving me alone anymore.”
The Bell Jar Monologue by Sylvia Plath
Sylvia Plath was a renowned author and poet. She suffered from huge and deep waves of depression in her adult life and eventually succumbed to self-destruction.
Her most widely known work The Bell Jar shows a dramatic monologue representing her severe struggle with depression.
“I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn’t quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn’t make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.”
Unbroken by D.M. Larson
This depression monologue is a somewhat romanticized version of depression. While it talks about the struggles of depression, it also highlights and romanticizes how a significant person can change the outlook of the person
“You found me, cast aside, lost and broken. You searched through the rubble to find the severed pieces of my life, and slowly fit them back together again.
Before you, I felt like I was dying. The panic consumed me and squeezed the life from my heart. But I didn’t care. When we are weighed down by the torture of hate, we don’t fear death. There was nothing to live for until I met you.
You rebuilt me and fixed what was broken. You made me better and pieced me back together in new ways that improved me. With the right parts, I was reborn. And life felt real. And right for the first time.”
The following monologue again shows the comforting and romantic notions, a depressed person feels towards darkness. Depression is highly characterized by the love for darkness, However, the darkness accompanied with loneliness makes a comforting space for the person.
“I wish I was scared of the dark. I mean, most people are, but I always find comfort sitting in it. Get home, shower, then lay in bed. Don’t turn the lights on my daily routine. Sit in the dark and listen to music. A vampire. That’s what my mom calls me. It’s not that I don’t like the light. You just think differently in the dark. You find comfort in it like a big black blanket wrapped around you. You just let go, not knowing what could happen. Your mind travels to so many places, and everything’s fine. Until you realize you’re alone. The feeling of loneliness hits you. You have no one to talk to. Everyone’s asleep. You’ve thought so much that the big black blanket is now suffocating you. So, tell me, is the darkness safe or dangerous?”
Wasteland by D.M. Larson
D. M. Larson shows the side of depression that is defined by overthinking. The narrator tells that it is important to avoid any deeper truths because that’s a wasteland.
“We live in a world where lies keep us quiet. Lies comfort us and allow us to go about our lives without worry. Why worry when we know nothing of the truth? Every wish is granted and this manufactured reality protects us from the unknown.
Don’t meddle in things you don’t understand. Be thankful for what you have. Don’t let whispers of the outside world cloud your judgment. It’s a wasteland outside these walls. These walls protect us and keep us safe. Our leaders watch over us. Always watching.
They know everything about us: our every need, our every desire, our fears, our thoughts. They know us better than we know ourselves. Don’t bother with fantasies of what was and what could be. That’s not important anymore. What’s important is that we have each other and we have everything we need to live. We don’t need anything else.”
In the following female drama’s monologue, Misplaced, the protagonist narrates the feeling of depression. She highlights the extreme disconnect she experiences from herself and life generally. It is a vivid and saddening depiction of a state of helplessness.
“I listen inside myself to the hum…this humming sound, between my ears, deep within my brain somewhere…when I listen to it, when I pay attention to it, everything goes into slow motion. My concentration intensifies and the humming gets worse; worse in the sense that, there’s a danger that starts bubbling up in the pit of my stomach, and then a vibration echoes through me, through the rest of my body…I start to get mixed in my brain; panicky, worrisome; a tunnel I’m trapped inside of or a drowning kind of sensation but more like an emotional drowning, not so much physical…
It can last for hours and hours…one time, it even lasted for days, and even when I regained my sense of self, it took me time to feel like me again. I don’t know what you call this. Maybe I’m losing my mind, and it frightens me, to be honest. I’ve never uttered a word to this before to anyone I know! Thank you for hearing me out.”
This blog listed and explained the most heartbreaking depression monologues.
Frequently Asked Questions (FAQs): Depression Monologues
What are the DSM IV criteria for depression?
DSM IV criteria for depression include depressed mood throughout or most part of the day, for at least two years with the existence of two or more of the following symptoms that can cause a clinically prominent change in work, social, or other important aspects of functioning:
- Lack of appetite or overeating.
- Insomnia or hypersomnia
- Fatigue or lack of energy
- Worthlessness or excessive guilt
- Recurring death thoughts
- Loss of interest or pleasure in most activities
- The depressed mood throughout the day
- Unintentional weight gain or loss.
- Agitation or psychomotor retardation is experienced by others.
What is the DSM 5 definition of depression?
The clinical definition of depression, according to the fifth edition of the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Health Disorders (DSM-5), is “a period of at least two weeks when a person experienced a depressed mood or loss of interest or pleasure in daily activities and had a majority of specified symptoms, such as problems with sleep, eating, energy, concentration, or self-worth.”